Saturday, April 30, 2016

Stubbornness and Stupidity Can Move Mountains

         The goal was to have a set decision on what I wanted to focus on next year, the post April era, by the end of the month. A few weeks ago it was 50/50 on the athletic / biathlon vs the non athletic / real world approach to life. I was fortunate enough to have a meeting with a group of old and new coaches. We went over what was available and what unfortunately wasn't. Everyone made it clear that it was my decision and would support either direction. At some point, it was also mentioned that I'll know "for sure" what I want to do sooner or later and it won't be the 50/50 scenario anymore. Turns out that was precisely the case.
Former MWSC coach and USBA coach Per still using me as a reference.
         So I'm in the sport for another year. As mentioned before, pre-Olympic year retirement is seldom, so two more years is likely. Unlike past years, it wasn't the usually inability to give up. This time it was a conscious choice. This was the closest I've ever been to hanging up the fight and seeking normal world possibilities. In the course of one day however, it was clear (for more than one decision) that I was going to be a biathlete for a little while longer.
       The reasoning had to be justified though. If I stay in 100% and fail to figure it out or achieve my goals it will only have been an extra two years tacked onto an already long career of 100% effort. It wouldn't be easy to deal with over the next two years, but a decade or so down the road and I'll have those additional years beyond the glory result seasons to fairly say "I tried." There are more successful athletes that wouldn't be able to say the same. Let's not forget the other side. Should I finally break a threshold in shooting percentages I would be able to at least set myself up for greater results. Ski speed was up and down last season, but there was one too many days when better shooting would have drastically brought up the performance. Ski speed hasn't dropped off enough to give up on and depending on how to look at it, neither has shooting.
       It is not that I don't have other interest, more so, I would like more time to think it over. An education is still the works, but I'm taking my time more than I would like to admit. Nevertheless, an online class starts up this Monday with my name on the list. The horror stories of the real world are non stop. Based off of what I've heard it would seem there is no point in getting out of bed in the morning, much less pursuing your goals. So that being said, I'm aware of how crushing life can be.
      So what is the plan to make a notable difference on the shooting range?  The truth is there was a slight push to think outside the box last year at this time. Unfortunately, everyone was busy and occupied with other task and in the end my training stayed in the all too familiar biathlon training system. This isn't to say that that system doesn't work. It has worked for me before and I certainly would consider it a comfort zone, but it's clear now that outside opinions are worth the effort. An idea or two is on the wall and unlike my last update some of them are coming together. No details yet, but think other shooting sports and opinions.
      The logistic and resources needed to make this happen were a limiting factor in the decision process. Ultimately, the sooner I can make an itinerary of how to attack this year the sooner I can conspire a way to make it work. Training wise, the total volume will drop again this year. Most athletes don't have a problem making that happen. Typically increasing the total training load is the difficult part. Somehow I over shot my 700 hour plan last year and hit 770. In layman's terms, that's unusual. The loose idea from here is to keep the energy up enough for the important sessions and allot my schedule with enough time to make other arrangements feasible. Whether it's a niche part time job (any suggestions?) or a flight into Colorado Springs the drop in volume should alleviate some stress.

      Plus I didn't feel like writing a lengthy farewell update. Some things never change. Not yet anyways. Nothing is set in stone. A bit unlikely, but motivation could change a month down the road. For now, it's down to working my way back into training while pinning at an outside perspective on the shooting front. Not unlike the recent norm, weather has been all over the place. It was -8C the other day. I did some intensity on snow twice last week. It's not the best skiing, but the longer I can dodge roller skiing the better. It's amazing what a stubborn attitude can do when applied to the bigger picture. So hear's to thrashing it for another round. In the long run, if I win I win and if I loose, I win. 
     

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